John Mathews

thank you all. It's been a interesting few days (because of lockdown not being able to go to my normal pharmacy so have had issues getting my new prescription) I have a therapy session next week so yeah something to bring up and once back to work will have to have a serious talk with my boss (off course with a unionn rep in attendence as i need the grounding) but I feel i will probably get alot further with out my own normally start ever conversation with an argument

You guys have 11 deaths in New Zealand and your entire country is locked down? The entire world, with the soul exception of Sweden, has gone completely stark raving insane. With all best intentions, our dear President and his team rolled out a 3 phase program to reopen the USA today. All I see is a 3 phase program that lays out in detail all the ways for Democrats to keep us closed indefinitely. My prediction... very large protests. At the moment nz has more recovered cases then active(nz counts probable cases in the active numbers) it's like hell we are proving this lock down is worth it as we have seen in the last week less cases then the week before. It just annoys me that the opposition party are going about saying after supporting the lockdown that everything is great and we shouldn't stay on lockdown we should be like australia. Yes things could of been lock down faster in nz but tbh i will take 11 deaths for 1400 cases then over the rest of the world

https://i.stuff.co.nz/national/crime/121078372/coronavirus-two-claiming-lockdown-makes-them-illegally-detained-sue-jacinda-ardern I hate people

So I don't know why but this feels easier to talk to people I have never meet in person then to people i actually know but what the hell.To be honest when it comes to being online i have always been very open. For the last 15 years or half my life depending how you look at it I have been battling with mental health issues. I have been suicidal, Self destroying, fighting everyone I could (if anyone wants my original thoughts on argent I can tell many story's)., and not really getting any where in life. Hell I first wanted to join the RNZAF but once the government got rid of attack jets I wanted to join the navy as an officer but because no one in my family had either been in the navy in any country nor an officer but because worked school out that I never got NCEA Lvl 3 (I don't know what that is in other country's but it is the finial year of high school in, even through i did a lot of level 3 classes in level 2 (form 6/about when your 16ish). Currently trying to put my self throw university and eventually join the police (even through nz customs want me just can't get through the interview stage). But today that kinda changed. After deciding to go outside the public health system I finally got diagnosed with ADD. Does this change who I am not really but to me it feels like for once I can finally focus on the base of the fire instead of the flare ups that happen time to time because I wasn't getting the right support that i actually needed. I am a little drunk and finding it hard to write but i think my point to this whole thing is, if you are finding things hard and difficult don't give up, keep pushing your doctors, therapists who ever to get you the treatment you need. And if you need to vent about something or want to talk to someone who had several doctors tell him it's all in my head ping me on discord (given nz lock down i am pretty much available alot). As i said i have had the run around for half my life and I never gave up, yeah came close but still I am here. And i might not have all the answers but I see Iron as pretty much as my online family so i look out for my family

Java versions and bedrock versions are not able to join the same game. Kinda hate bedrock version as when i upgraded to it on the xbox it broke my map... i might own minecraft on 360, xbox one and pc.....

So on wednesday New Zealand will go into "essential services only" lockdown... and my work is trying to scrape in as essential services...... as a union delegate i have had to try to calm all my members about what is happening

Played over 200 hours since its good. Havent played it in a couple of years but the expansions make it better. So nz has grown to over 50 cases and developed a alert system and seeing as i live in the most region with the most population i am seriously hoping gamestop pay us our bonus next pay so i can do something while we probably on lockdown. Kinda annoyed as coronavirus is goimg to screw up my first holiday in 4 years

https://youtu.be/AwFTZawOc9k Pretty much why china is screwing over the WHO so not helping the situation

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I am a member of NZ First so i get made out as a racist or supporter of a neo-trump (new flash our leader has been at it way longer then trump) i wont get to much into it you dont have to 100% agree with the party to support it and being a member of the party can help change it's views. The stereotype for my party is everyone is grey power racists but it is really the youth wing that is driving the change (hell we were able to reverse party policy on drug testing at festivals (https://www.google.com/amp/s/www.newshub.co.nz/home/politics/2019/10/new-zealand-first-to-reconsider-its-policy-against-drug-testing-pills-at-festivals.amp.html). The one thing you have to find is a party that sticks to its guns. People say we betrayed them at last election but we went in with the we are going to change the status quo and unfortunately as the junior partner in the collation there were compromises that had to be made. So the main thing i can say if you feel strongly about a party or one that is close enough with your views the best way is to get involved and hold them accountable. Also if we are going on partys willing to shoot themselves in the foot that's about half of new Zealand's political parties in a nut shell

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