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[John Mathews]

So I don't know why but this feels easier to talk to people I have never meet in person then to people i actually know but what the hell.To be honest when it comes to being online i have always been very open.

 

For the last 15 years or half my life depending how you look at it I have been battling with mental health issues. I have been suicidal, Self destroying, fighting everyone I could (if anyone wants my original thoughts on argent I can tell many story's)., and not really getting any where in life. Hell I first wanted to join the RNZAF but once the government got rid of attack jets I wanted to join the navy as an officer but because no one in my family had either been in the navy in any country nor an officer but because worked school out that I never got NCEA Lvl 3 (I don't know what that is in other country's but it is the finial year of high school in, even through i did a lot of level 3 classes in level 2 (form 6/about when your 16ish). Currently trying to put my self throw university and eventually join the police (even through nz customs want me just can't get through the interview stage).

 

But today that kinda changed. After deciding to go outside the public health system I finally got diagnosed with ADD. Does this change who I am not really but to me it feels like for once I can finally focus on the base of the fire instead of the flare ups that happen time to time because I wasn't getting the right support that i actually needed.

 

I am a little drunk and finding it hard to write but i think my point to this whole thing is, if you are finding things hard and difficult don't give up, keep pushing your doctors, therapists who ever to get you the treatment you need. And if you need to vent about something or want to talk to someone who had several doctors tell him it's all in my head ping me on discord (given nz lock down i am pretty much available alot). As i said i have had the run around for half my life and I never gave up, yeah came close but still I am here. And i might not have all the answers but I see Iron as pretty much as my online family so i look out for my family

 

[ccabal86]

Hi John!

 

I'm happy that you finally got diagnosed properly and receiving the appropriate treatment. I'm sure this will help a lot in achieving what you set out to do in the future 

 

All the best to you in going forward!

[Captain Crozier]

Hey JM!

Congrats and be cautious.

Now that you have a workable diagnosis, you still have to work around a lot of learned habits to successfully move forward.

I'm so heartened that you won't have to fight a baseline problem that is nearly or totally uncontrollable without help, but sometimes learning to cope during those situations, sets up a whole range of learned responses that are no longer needed once the baseline changes.  Just be wary.  I mean sometimes it IS the other folks around you so it can be hard to tell when a rage response is appropriate and how to channel it.  Make use any counseling help you feel comfortable with to help you maintain perspective.

 

Best of Luck,

 

CC 

[John Mathews]

thank you all.

 

It's been a interesting few days (because of lockdown not being able to go to my normal pharmacy so have had issues getting my new prescription) I have a therapy session next week so yeah something to bring up and once back to work will have to have a serious talk with my boss (off course with a unionn rep in attendence as i need the grounding) but I feel i will probably get alot further with out my own normally start ever conversation with an argument